@ forr 1 Sale

This is a two for 1 sale,
where there would normally be two blogs here,
now there will be one,
actually there will be two sub-blogs, and one post,
so spin it whatever way suits you best.
I'm spinning it that you get two blogs.

FMAW update.
Well people have been playing, or rather I have some news,
but it's nothing like the game is over. but I'll get to that in a minute.
I had a friend set me up with a girl.
and it was fun,
we went out for 'bout a month,
and then blam-o just like that she was gone,
the worst part is she won't tell me why it didn't work.
I did think we were well matched,
but the breaking up part has made dating again a bit hard,
mostly because I believe there is more to the story than I know.
She said we should just be friends,
but I kind of doubt that's going to happen,
I mean I might invite her to shuffleboard or something,
but I kind of doubt she will ever invite me to anything.
Sometimes it might be better if people would say something,
that perhaps wouldn't be as favorable, but might more accurately reflect the situation.

FMAW -- part two
Ok so what is this contest. well in short, I want to increase my odds of finding new friends that match my personality and interests.
What it is not -- An open invitation to throw anyone you know my way.
As I see it, It is nearly inevitable that people are going to keep setting me up until,
A) I find a wife,
B) I lash out at a person for trying to set me up
or
C) people just give up on me.

That being said, I thought this "contest" would be a good way help any of those wishing to follow such a course of action to know what kind of people they should be trying to set me up with. I tried to keep it pretty broad, but sometimes I wonder if people skipped the important part of the rules, like what I'm looking for. In short I should have some things in common with a girl for her to be a good match, and we should have similar goals, and priorities.
oh yes, and she can't hate my MAC.
(I had to throw it out there Ü)

Post two
I have been pondering me for a while,
because I know I have weaknesses,
and because someone (maybe I mentioned them)
won't tell me what didn't work about "Us"

And because I have seen some interesting things.
For instance: I noticed that I like to flirt,
but that I don't do it much while I'm dating.
(I think I'm scared of scaring people),
but now I'm thinking to heck with people,
I like to flirt, I may just do it anyway.

The other thing I have noticed is that I have two glaringly obvious weaknesses,
at least they are glaring to me. and I call them weaknesses,
because they are two things that I wish were different,

they are #1 I don't show love very well at all,
(this would be the overarching category that would include
only having courage to flirt with people I'm not yet dating)

and #2 I don't have fun very well.

for number one I have seen it a lot,
I really do care about people,
but when I'm in the moment, my mind doesn't automatically say "what will help them,
or what do they need, or what can I do?"
Somehow, between my thoughts and my mouth, the love often gets lost.

I'm very pragmatic, I like to find solutions, and sometimes I forget the important part,
"Do they know that I care?"
I do. I see this in work, and in church, and relationships.
( I even had a class where we did a sort of simulation, and I prepared myself to be loving,
but as soon as I got going , I forgot that part of the equation. I was strictly business, and I did a good job, but it would have been great with a little more love)


#2 I want to be fun,
I want to make someone so happy, that they can't hold it in,
but I want to do it in a suit and a tie, (metaphorically speaking)
I don't know why exactly, but I'm a rather formal person,
I gave a talk last week, and the only thing I couldn't write was a joke,
I wanted something to keep peoples interest
Maybe something to wake them up,
I found a few things, but mostly it was just a little flat,
rather formal, not quite passionate, just long enough to let people drift away.

(this is probably why I don't like 'painting' with pastels, they're just too messy,
and something about their messiness does fit my formality, (though oddly I do love ceramics,
and they might be even more of a mess))

I like fun, and I think I do some fun things,
(see next post)
but I think I could improve here a little bit too.

More than just about anything,
I love it when people are happy,
I wish I could do more, to contribute to our (me and the people around me) happiness.

I guess these two things are hard for me,
I sort of know how to change, them,
and I know that I would like to be better in them,
but sometimes I look back and say, hhhummph,
I did it again, I'm still not fun, and I still can't show my love.

I guess for now I just need to start,
Perhaps I will start with a pocket full of rocks.
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